Hi. c:> I haven't come here in so long. I feel old and weird, like I've gone into a long and painful journey and finally came back to visit my old home.
Well, I'm soon finishing university. I've got 1 more year. It's crazy I tell you. I feel so tired. I can't believe I'm finally gonna finish. But this last year will be the hardest ever.
I have to take "seminar", which is pretty much the final work of art I will ever make in this university, and it has to be the best ever in order to graduate. There will be 3 judges constantly critiquing my art every once in a while, and they won't take anything lightly. They are tough and will make you cry if you're not strong enough. I totes know I'm gonna cry at least once. Most likely more. I turn into a cry baby when I'm nervous and embarrassed and standing in front of a crowd. But I will try to do my best.
I don't feel very hyper and positive anymore like I used to be. I feel like university has darkened me. It feels weird and I don't like it. Maybe when it's all over, my silly self will come back. I hope. Life can get so freaking tough it's really scary. And I haven't even fully adultened yet. Jesus, I hope life turns colorful again after I break free from the university stress. I guess I can't completely blame university. This year of 2016 has been really horrible. I did have some happy moments, but so much horrible things have happened. And the year's not over yet. I'm scared. I hope my health doesn't get worse, at least.
Anyway, I'm really considering taking commissions again, but this time also taking real money. I don't know when I'll start that, but maybe next summer. Or maybe even this winter break, if I somehow find the time.
I really miss drawing whatever cute and fluffy things I feel like, whenever I feel like. And commissions were pretty fun last time. I really miss my free and silly high school life in deviantart. I drew so much. Now I feel tired of drawing. It's become work, and I'm forced to draw things to please my professors. I just feel so dark and drowned. ;^; I'm so sorry for all these depressing details. I need to lighten up.
Anyway, keep an eye one me soon, if you want to commission me eventually. Check back during winter break, just in case. If I don't pop up during that time, you know what's happening. So instead, come back during next summer.
I'm so ready to finish university. I can't wait to graduate. I just feel so old.
Well, bye. Enjoy your childhood. It's the best ever.
I wish I could go back.